#NowPlaying: The Airborne Toxic Event - Sometime Around Midnight

Just got in from this event tonight with the roomster. It was pretty rad actually, this chickadee that wants to help out this hotel with their social media-ness invited me ... super super super nice lady. I was explaining to her twitter, etc ... she dug it. Either way, still kinda just blah about everything from this weekend with the International Badass. Again, AH-MAZING time with an AH-MAZING human being ... but the roomie said something to me tonight that just kinda shook me. She was brushing her teeth the other night while he and I were skyping, and she could hear me talking and it shocked her. She had never heard that "tone" in my voice. She goes for the first time I could tell you were just being you, and not dumbing something down for someone; I've never heard you be that open with someone.

I just fucking feel like I am putting myself in this hole where this website is my only intimate relationship. That makes me AH-MAZING at what I do professionally ... but personally speaking, it's not enough. It's not even about dating someone, or I don't know ... maybe it is. I've just never had that. And I grew up with the Disney version of it, and it just makes me angry as an adult knowing that I organically don't seek it out, but because now as an adult I've never had it, I can't not want it. AHHHHHHHHH!!! Shut up, Jen. I'm just on the greatest ride of my life, and I truly believe it is only as good as the people you have to share it with. I am blessed to have amazing friends - but I want more, and I won't settle for less. Am I asking for too much, or not enough? And why is it I am so ADD that so few dudes can even hold my attention?

Guys tell me ALL the time that they love what I do, and find it all so fascinating ... but they end up watching instead of participating; that puts me in a fish bowl. Dudes, I only bite if you ask. Like straight up, down, left and right. Don't be lame ... talk to me.

Life is too short. Life is too short. Life is too short. And I am currently too fucking frustrated with my personal life. I have to change something. K ... music time.

#buenosnachos

#NowPlaying: @KatyPerry - E.T. ( Noisia dubstep remix )

AHHHHH!!!! I need some pep in my step this morning. For reals, I very literally don't think I've ever gone this long without substantial sleep and ... yeah; HAHA fuck me sily, I can't even think of anything witty to write. I'm just going to ... yeah. Shh Jen, shh.

Either way, this is what I'm currently jamming to. It is nevveerrrrrrrr too early to put on some dub, and this song just makes my life. It is played SOOOOOOOOOO much here in CT which is just making me super horny. For reals - I don't know what it is with this song, but the beat reminds me of having sex. Same rhythm.

Ugh. Ugh. Ugh. Simma donna. Donna Summa. Need to start chewing ice.

#happydance

#NowPlaying: Neal- Molly Smiles

AHHHHH this video gets me every time. All this research I've been doing for this new TV project has brought back some SERIOUS memories from my childhood. 

I always loved this video from Uptown Girls. The movie was meh, Dakota Fanning however is just wow - so effing talented ... but seriously ... this totally takes me back to my dance recitals as a kid. I can still see my dad from the stage with his camcorder, which at the time was like half the size of him.

He was always filming us growing up. I hated it then, but obviously adore him for it now. 

I miss my parents, a lot. I wish I could see them more, but this is the life that I lead, and that is just what happens. 

Either way - thinking about my parentals a lot today, specifically my dad - and this made me smile. However, no, my name is not Molly. (I keed ... I keed)

Daddy's little girl
Paints the world with her magic wand
Daddy's little child
Breathes new life to the morning time, for me
Though we're apart, her thoughts follow me

When I come home
Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates a glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles

Daddy's little girl
Ties a ribbon around my heart
Daddy's little child
Waves goodbye to the ocean tide that sweeps me
Though we're apart, she's a part of me

Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates a glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles

Molly smiles with the dawn
Molly smiles and she radiates a glow around her halo
When she plays, Molly smiles
On a summer day, Molly smiles
A new day, Molly smiles

Nothing's wrong when Molly smiles 

#jennysmiles

#NowPlaying: BoomFunk MC - FreeStyle

OMMMGGGG ... I've had a massive creative block today and yesterday. Like hardcore. Like so hardcore if it were a movie it'd be some NC-17 type shit!

For reals, anytime I get like this I have to jam out to something that is moving as fast as my brain and just go into my own little zone. Insert Girl Talk on Pandora!!! Totes made my life, and THIIISSS song just came on. HOLY CRAP! Haven't heard it in FOREVER!!!!!!!

Enjoy ... and make sure you tell your mother I said hello.

Freestyler...rock the microphone
Straight from the top of my dome
Freestyler...rock the microphone
Carry on with the freestyler

I gotz to hmmm, to throw on
And go on, you know i gotz to flow on
Selectors on ya radio play us
'Cause we're friendly for ozone
But that's not all so hold on
Tight, as I rock the mic right
Oh.. excuse me, pardon
As I syncronize with the analyzed
Upcomin' vibes the session,
Let there be a lession, question
You carry protection
Or will your heart go on
Like Celine Dion - Karma Chameleon

Yeaah, straight from the top of my dome
As I rock, rock, rock, rock, rock the microphone

Hit me!

Styles, steelos, we bring many kilos
So you could pick yours, from the various
Ambitious, nutrious, delicious, delirious
Or vicious, just tell us
We deliver anything from accappellas
To best sellers, suckers get jealous
But their soft like marshmellows
you know they can't handle us
like debbie does dallas
Yeah, we come scandalous so who tha fuck
Is alice, is she from buckinham palace?

Yeaah, straight from the top of my dome
As I rock, rock, rock, rock, rock the microphone

Hit me!

#thatisall

#NowPlaying: Primitive Radio Gods - Standing outside a Broken Phone Booth

Bout to pop in the shower and then head to happy hour to have drinks with one of my favorite writers. Dudes, bless Facebook man - this nerderino kept me going when the site was only a few months old by telling me I was doing something epic and to not give up. Amazing what a year brings ... really really really admire this person, and just blessed & stoked to be alive. 

Totally crushing on the 90s as usual. Listening to some Primitive radio gods. Have a listen ... 

Jan lays down and wrestles in her sleep
Moonlight spills on comic books
And superstars in magazines
An old friend calls and tells us where to meet
Her plane takes off from Baltimore
And touches down on Bourbon street

We sit outside and argue all night long
About a god we've never seen
But never fails to side with me
Sunday comes and all the papers say
Ma Teresa's joined the mob
And happy with her full time job

Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do what prophets say?
If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?

A life is time, they teach you growing up
The seconds ticking killed us all
A million years before the fall
You ride the waves and don't ask where they go
You swim like lions through the crest
And bathe yourself in zebra flesh

I've been downhearted baby
Ever since the day we met

#mellowyellow