A #Nerd #Randombling: Learning About Love

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's Aaron Fitzgerald

I’ve been called a nice guy, a sweet guy and an asshole.  I’ve always been insecure around the opposite sex and I have no idea why.  I talked to a friend about it and he said it just might be the way you are.  When I was young I didn’t know shit about love.  There was this girl, Corey, who I met in acting class when we were kids and I fell madly in love with her.  We’d talk on the phone everyday for hours.  I was a bit of a naïve idiot.  When she walked into the room my face would light up, so my friends told me later in life.  But honestly, I was obsessed with her.  Too obsessed.  I would tell how much I was in love with her all the time and she didn’t understand any of it.  One time she told me to listen to the words of Sting’s “If You Love Somebody Set Them Free.”  I never got it until later in life.  Once I was able to let her go that’s when she felt comfortable enough to open up to me.   Life is strange.

The second woman I fell in love with was a Canadian girl, Sherry.  Sherry and I met in a writing chat room.  The both of us were insecure about ourselves but we developed a terrific friendship.  We’d chat all the time.  Finally, after several years of interacting online we finally met.  She was just as awesome in person as she was online.  She was able to overcome her insecure about her weight, signed up at a gym and lost all the weight.  And if that wasn’t enough she got a job as a personal trainer at the gym she worked out at.  How cool is that?  Unfortunately we lived to far away from each other for our relationship to work and now she’s married.  But, she will always be a good friend of mine.

I’m still not sure if I know everything about love, but I’ve learned a lot over the years, mainly from these two amazing women.