#GeekSpeak: The sometimes random misadventures of @Abby_Cake
Tuesday, January 24, 2012 at 7:20PM<editorsnote> Nerds, meet my buddy Abby. I met her in Chicago at the #20SBSummit, and this chick is raaaddddd!! She considers herself more of a nerd than a geek - but I think she's just all shades of random and awesome. Oh and FTR, the TNTML stance on nerds versus geeks are that nerds are products of a genetic predisposition, and geeks are raised. BOOH-YAH!!! I only have one more thing left to say ... HIT IT ABBY!!!</editorsnote>
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @Abby_Cake
Making difficult decisions is, well, difficult. Although one might say I have more trouble making easy decisions — the question of what I should eat for lunch tends to bleed into dinner. One of the more positive aspects of my personality, in my opinion, is that I make difficult decisions with an iron fist. Once they are made, I do not rethink them. This is my life choice, for better or worse (and sometimes it has been worse).
Yet, in the wake of my difficult decision to pick my life up and move to Korea, I did not realize the necessitation of subsequent decisions I would have to make. This, in retrospect, seems naive; and as the clock ticks down to less than a month before our leave date, I am left with a pile of choices yet to sort through.
The most heartbreaking one was to leave our dog behind. Sherman has been my companion for six years and he literally means everything to me. Sherman is a German Shepherd mix, he was an injured stray with heartworms that I lured into my truck and ended up keeping. He is smart, intuitive, occasionally eats garbage, and loves me unconditionally.
Unfortunately, he also has severe anxiety caused by previous abuse and needs constant human interaction, preferably with a yard. I will not be able to offer him these things in Korea, and although it breaks my heart, I have decided to leave him here — with a yard, constant care, and far less stress. My intention was to take him, but I fear for his sanity.
He, of course, is not aware of my plans to leave him and is, at present, laying in bed with me completely oblivious and content. I, on the other hand, am filled with an overwhelming guilt every time he looks at me.
I have wanted to move to Asia since I was little. I tried once, to get into the JET Program, but my ex talked me OUT of it; and that decision was, for a while, one of my biggest regrets. Now, I have a new chance to do something I have only dreamed about, a boyfriend who is not just talking me INto it, but going with me — and I am not going to pass it up again.
I am going to be making sacrifices and difficult decisions for the next month, but I know in the end it will be worth it — for better, in this case, for both of us.
xx, @abby_cake
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Reader Comments (1)
i was totally in this place with my pup rocky when it came to launching this site. giving him up was the HARDEST thing i have ever done, but in retrospect i dont regret it for a minute. he had an AMAZING rest of his life with my parents, and i followed my passion - which had i not done, i would have regretted. its so hard, but sometimes loving something so much is understanding when is a good time to find them a good home. you cant deny your own inner destiny for it.
stay strong chica. xoxoxo