That Nerdy Chick Wants a #Badass
Tuesday, December 7, 2010 at 3:48PM
Oh goodness gracious, I had a date last night. It went really well ... however, the foreshadowing prior was a bit creepy. Dude, he totally posted on Facebook like 10 mins before he picked me up "about to do something that I NEVER do." WTH?! Again though, he has no idea my consumption of social media ... which I kinda dig as a novelty, but am also acutely aware that it can't last. I am testing some of my theories out on this dude. Is it sad that I will die lifecasting? We're just told so much bullshit in life, I'd rather use myself as this weird test tube subject to figure out if its actually accurate or not. I don't view it as sacrificial since I do very genuinely enjoy this dudes company ... however I feel like anytime you are testing something out, you can't fully be present. I'm always thinking, this happened ... this happened ... how can I tell this story? It's definitely not normal, but if I enjoy it then I'm just going to keep going with it.
He came to the door, which literally shocked me. I can't even remember the last time anyone actually came to the front door of a dwelling I was inhabiting to pick me up for a date. No call, no text saying "hey I'm here ..." or worse, the honk of the horn. I'd want to say major brownie points, but I'm not that kinda gal. Opening a door, which he also does, does nothing for me. I have two capable arms that can open my own doors ... however if they ever become too exhausted, I wouldn't mind a door here or there opened. Then again let's keep it real, when are you EVER too tired to just open a damn door. Either way ... he's definitely a gentleman, but on me, that's neither here nor there.
I am 100% drawn to the badasses of the world. I don't want someone that oohs and aaahs at my day, I want someone who adds value by saying, wow you thought of that - did you try this? I like challenges, I like being on my toes, I like being pushed to be a better person or to try THAT much harder. Sick and twisted, but why do you think I am in love with Chuck Bass?? Cause and effect ... I get INCRREEDDIIBBLLEE mental stimulation out of what I do everyday, that if someone isn't willing to let go, bend some of the rules, and have some REAL fun with me ... I don't think I'd be game.
This guy is really sweet ... I'm seeing him again this week, but he doesn't have a lot of life experience. I'm 25 almost 26 and they're already basing a TV show off of mine. Albeit, I know that's an EXTREME set of circumstances ... its still my constant.
I told him not to read the site, so I could explore a few things that I was feeling about him on here. We'll see if he listens. I told him that I'm freakishly good at reading faces, so I will know either way ... dude, its so awkward when you know someone has read something you tweeted, or posted - and they go "oh wow ... " or whatever in response. I know you read it, and now I'm reading your face knowing that you read it, and you're pausing slightly now thinking that I know that you know that I read it.
Um yeah.
PS. He was an AAMAAZINNGGG cook btw. Like for reals, I'm still not entirely convinced there wasn't a box somewhere from the groccery store hiding in the trash. It was insane. Being a good cook = major.major.majoorrrrr brownie points!
Reader Comments (5)
i'm a fuckin badass but you dont want to get mixed up with me i'm a loner, jen, a rebel.
HAHAHA!! i know right! thats why my heart ends up getting broken ... i like playing with fire too much. I'd rather have it broken though by staying with what I'm drawn to, than settling for something that I'm not. jigga jigga jigga
Should have tweeted you when he arrived.
hahahahahahahaha
I don't know, Jen. Normally, I find your quirkiness pretty adorable, but this kind of "he treats me well, and I like badasses, so this just wont work" sounds like a total cop-out. You see, this is the reason perfectly normal nice guys get complexes: you go on a miffed tangent because the man openned the door for you? Really? What ever happened to where being a gentleman became a turn-off? I guess we all know why chivalry is dead now: women killed it.
I can understand if this guy just didn't trip your trigger, thats reasonable. I'm sure we've all gone on dates with people where we realize afterwards that the chemistry, the spark, the whatevs just wasn't there. But to put-off this guy because he's not a "badass" is really lame of you. Surely there is a reason you don't think this is working out other than he didn't stick you with the bill, made some comment about you gaining weight, highly implied you didn't matter at all to him, had sex with you, and then left.