#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Anberlin - Impossible

OHHHMYYYGATTOOSSS!!!

Anberlin were like amazing. Like crazy, stupid, epicly, like you should have been there, cause there were only 100 people in the room for their acoustic set, like AMAZINNGGGG!!!! BAHHHHHHH!!! Those nerds really know how to kick it. Vid will be posted tomorrow. Thx again Steven for the interview!!!

Wow, super stoked! Interview with Wired is next week. Jigga ... jigga ... jigga! OH and just did an interview today for @CadillacJax - super cool. Um yeah! So much is going on ... its kinda cool, and kinda overwhelming at the same time. DUDE! I totally am incapable of playing it cool. SOO!! I asked this dude out the other night on Twitter, and hes totally up for some nerdy loving. WELL!! I also invited him to the event tonight, and yeah - super super suppperrr cute. Like crazy, super cute and nerdy!!!! I have a total nerd crush. We have our first official date tomorrow - and its so funny, normally, I'm never "that chick" but OMGGG!! hahahahahahaha I am SOOO that chick right now! He was so nice! To the workers at the party, he didn't get all LA and say - no, bye! He was engaging without being fake, and dude we totally went to the same acting school in NY and he totally went to college with a guy from my middle school. Crazy small world.

It is funny though being a lifecaster, I am just so damn honest with my feelings that NOW if I unplug for even a minute, I am incapble of keeping a poker face. I could barely even look at this dude tonight without thinking "omg omg omg" HAHAHA!! So not cool ... and he's so reading this right now ... which makes it all less cooler! But who cares!!! This is me, if a guy out there is ever going to be all up on it, he better know he's in for some seriously nerdy shit. I don't know, I just like what I like when I like it. If its there ... great! If its not ... I'm not going to waste anyones time. Life is just too short. Its funny though, my screen is legitimately broken right now, so I cant tweet or checkin places. Lucky bastard ...

So yeah!! Our director comes back from Europe next week, so we'll keep you posted - basically we're just waiting on him to get back so we can move balls to the wall forward. So, so, stoked! Thank you all so so much for being part of my life. Appreciate you all from the tips of my toes to the little dip in my nose! We've got some crazy cool stuff coming up, so buckkllleeee uppppp!!! =) =) =)

#NerdsUnite

Oh oh oh!! and it was GREAT to bump into you tonight @jeremiah!!! Small world! dude, i didnt even checkin haha!!!

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Goo Goo Dolls-  Let love in

BAHHHH!!!!! What a day!!!!!! I am stuck somewhere between so effin excited, and the reality that the work has barely begun. Just got off the phone with the parentals, and the WEIRDEST part about all of this, is that everything is entirely independent, but under one nerdy umbrella. I have THREE BIG BIG BIG projects on the VERY front burner, and even a couple on the back - yet, any day each one of those could pop. Today, the film took more of a front seat, but who knows tomorrow AOL could call, or my client who told me back in June about this bitchin project he wanted me for ... this is how things get done. I don't sit there and focus on one of them for too long, I literally have ALL of them going at once and just focus on each moment and what my next do-able action is in all of it. It's honestly the only way you can stay sane. 

I was really stressed out for the last few weeks regarding this paperwork for the film, and was even going to just go up to San Fran just to get answers ... but POOF just like that, we got everything we needed. It just amazes me the people that are behind this community, and the people that really believe in what we are doing. The impossible is possible because of you. I kid you not!! It's not a joke!

I have no idea if ANY of this is going to be a success. Success of course being a very personal thing, but by traditional standards lets deem it successful to the point where I no longer have to barter social media to live; it becomes a profitable entity in its own regard. It being the multimedia components of the site, as again, this site will always be 100% traditional advertiser free. Yes, we do have ads on the side of the screen, but those were negotiated under different terms. I want people to be free and comfortable expressing themselves in their own element of unapologetic awesomeness.

But yeah!!! BIG BIG BIG day!!!! So much of this though has to do with attitude. I literally had no idea how we were going to accomplish any of this. I even said over and over to the producers, "I have no idea how, but I will figure it out." I won't give up. This is my life, and to say I eat.sleep.&breathe. it is an understatement. This is the only thing I am capable of conversing about, and very literally the core of everything I believe in, in this world. I would have taken a job in an office, and gotten married and popped out 2.5 kids by now if I didn't think I could make this work. I KNOOWWWWWW I am making it work, its more just a matter of not setting expectations, as that can impair your attitude, and being conscious of the fact that I am very publicly describing how I am doing all of this along the way - and hearing every two seconds, "did you do it yet?" Can def. get on my nerves.

These random thoughts are pretty much my saving grace. It makes all of this tangible for me. I am sincerely as shocked as the rest of the world that this is working. It's completely illogical, but maybe the lack of logic is the new logic. Maybe this is the way ideas, and businesses can launch in social media ... by building a community and inviting them to come along for the journey. I have no idea, and I'm not even going to be cool and try to pretend.

I will tell you this, the world thinks I'm bat shit crazy.

The majority of people have not been supportive, and at least 2 times a day I hear, "but how do you plan on actually getting it done." I'm smart you asshole. I have no fucking clue, but I just stay present and see opportunities that others may not see. I don't know how else to describe it.

Yeah, at this point ... we're good. We're like crazy stupid good. Not that I ever doubted, trust, but the last few weeks have been INCREDDDIIBBLLYY stressful, and today - I can exhale for a minute. That feels good!! =) =) =) ROCK ON NERDS!!! Follow your dreams! If people think you're crazy, keep going, you're doing something innovative!!! =) =) =)

The #TNTML difference!

Alrite, so I've been thinking pretty hardcore about this since Tahoe Tech Talk. I've sort of organically just let this site unfold itself. I coined the whole "social commentary on social media" thing to kinda just cover the fact that social media is a reflection of life, and pretty damn nerdy. Since I eat.sleep.and.breathe. social media, of course I was going to talk about it here ... its my version of nerd.

But the more and more I keep thinking about things, the more I am able to at least determine what I do NOT want this site to be:

We will NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER be a tabloid-eee sensationalism, journalistic type thing. Even as nerds become cooler and more mainstream, I have ABSOLUTELY no interest in being the TMZ for nerds. So fuck that. No really, never ever ever ever ever. I'll shut it down first. The shock jock approach will never happen here.

What I want:

The truth as told by the nerd posting. I want people to talk about what is relevant to them, as it is happening to them. Freedom of advertisers, freedom of sponsors, freedom of bullshit. Tell me about life as you see it to be true. Period. End of sentence.

I used this as a portfolio to basically say, yes, I can do it. We're going to get money from the projects stemming from TNTML, but not from it directly. Any money I get from the film, or the other ventures I am involved in are just going to go back to the community to fund it. I'm fascinated about conducting this experiment upon giving people permission slips to be awesome, and see what they do with it. I think it could be pretty bitchin. I just fear that if I do start taking on traditional advertisers and traditional sponsors, we're going to have to start censoring things. I don't want a SINGLE post on this site to be censored. Just post what you feel. Period end of sentence.

Life told by nerds, for nerds. Me likey.

PS. It's no joke too, if you guys ever have an idea on something we can work on, or a way you can add value, drop me an email, JenFriel@talknerdytomelover.com, tweet, or facebook my butt.

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

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Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: DMB - You & Me

I am somewhere in between so fucking stressed, and so fucking excited. For real ... I've had this really gnarly anxious feeling all day. Just been so absurdly busy. It's wonderful, and I'm totally not complaining, but it just never ends. And the worst part is, is that it's entirely me. I just always think if I can get x then I can get y. I don't ever believe in settling for anything but my personal best, and I really do think I will be one of those people that will sleep when they die. For reals, I'm just so effin excited.

AHHHH!!! I need an assistant like you wouldn't believe. I have soooo many people to friggen get back to today. I really just want a clone. Like for reals, still have to edit this video from being in studio yesterday, have the finish planning the #nerdherd, figure out my plan of action for Tuesday in San Fran, STILL have not uploaded that little blip for the UK show, I'm just .... blah. This is definitely the best of times and the worst of times. I hate being this big and still having no money. I need to pay people, so I don't feel guilty about asking them to do things. We have a staff of 34. THIRTY-FOURRRRRR. I just need to start adding structure to this beast. It's insane. It all happened so quickly.

So stressed. I am so stressed. The bitchin part about this though, is that I just use it to motivate me. I don't like feeling this way. Any time I feel even the SLIIGGHHTTEESTTTT bit of uncomfortable-ness, I change it. VERY quickly too. I just ... need to figure this shit out, or at least give myself a bit more of a break. It's just again really really really hard documenting all of this in real time. Success stories are actually successful before they start telling people how they did it. I've just doing it all in real time - which I personally thinks heightens things, but bllahhhhhhhhhhhh.

This isn't easy, but I love it. This site gave me an excuse to live, and just this excitement like I have never known. I know it's what I'm supposed to be doing, because to me it's like breathing. I just don't know differently. It feels too good to stop. I just have to keep on truckin! Time to get it done, baby! #NerdsUnite

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Dancing with Myself- Glee

Wow, just had literally the most insanely awesome day. For reals, started with a tweet this morning from Annie Automatic's @iamfrench, and dude!!! I got to hang out in studio all day with them!!! Yeah, expect a post and a vid tomorrow about it ... fucking epic.

Just got back from @bryceless' bday fiesta, and dooodeeee! OMG I met the hottest guy ever. Like for reals, he is a fucking freak of nature. Flat out, I do not know where this human being came from. He just got back from spending 4 years in the Andes, and I swear to goodness, I was praying for a Zombie Apocalypse just so I could have all 100,000 of his nerdy babies on the spot. Dude, he's totally younger than me too ... I didn't really know how to process it all. It was very overwhelming, in every awesome way. YESSS!!! Hope for mankind ...

Dude, there is so much shit going on with this blessed little site right now, I'm just floored. So, so, so grateful for everything ... and SUPPERRRRR stoked about life! So yeah, I try not to live with any expectations, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't keeping my fingers crossed about this nerd calling me. I am trying not to tell myself that I don't realistically have even a minute to date someone, and just staying with this crazy feeling of butterflies. Which feels really, really, really, crazy good btw.

I am really starting to get so much more of where I want this site to go btw. I just want to document the human experience through the eyes of nerds - that's it. I am fascinated by hearing life experiences, and obviously experiencing my own. I sort of don't know how just yet I want all of it to go down, but its like the MTV series True Life, but for nerds. And we're lifecasters. And yeah ... I am onto something, just don't know what yet.

OH AND OH OH OH!! Was talking to @iamfrench today, and he's still BFFs with The Woz, and he offered to try and get him to answer a few questions for us. I said, OMG! that would be amazing even just a few. And he goes, why not just 1. Make it good, and epic. Fucking brilliant. Ask for an interview, and only ask literally one question. What to ask the Woz!?!?!

I just ... I just ...  I just ... have to go masturbate after staring at that hot delicious nerd all evening. Buenos nachos.

#KTHXBYE