#Randombling: @JenSquard

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @JenSquard

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: ‪nothing. silence is my friend right now.

Dang, today was a rough day.  I try to take the kids out of of the house at least once a day, but we have kind of been cooped up the last couple of days.  We left, but not until after Brian got home, so it really doesn't count, and the damage has been hardcore.  They get defiant and naughty, and I get grouchy and short-fused.  Not fun for any of us. 

The hubs decided to take me on a date since I was feeling deflated and cut off from the world.  We decided to just do dinner since my mom had the kids, and it was not so good.  At all.  My sushi was less than stellar, and my spider roll (which I totally ate against doctor's orders) had cilantro in it.  Gross to the max.  Then while we were buying the last of our Christmas making supplies we both got sick.  Awesomesauce. 

So date night helped a little, mostly because I have a great husband and he makes me laugh with his nuttiness.  And the fact that I can say something ridiculous and he thinks it funny.  And because he thinks my SpiritHood is sexy. 

And I think my empathy is turned up a little too high these days.  I was feeling totally fine, then I read @JenFriel's psych ward post, and it really...brought me down.  I felt so proud of her for being able to share and grow from the experience, but the pain she went through turned into my pain.  Empathy has always been one of my biggest assets, but it doesn't always work that way, I suppose.  I have to find a way to dial it back to some sort of manageable level so I don't get so defeated when someone else is hurting.  Silly silly. 

Meh, find me on Twitter.  And Facebook.   And goodnight.

Comments

[Talk Nerdy To Me Lover]

incredible how we all process things so differently. i am so neutral on that situation its like totes mcgotes not even funny. it feels like it never even belonged to me in the first place. just something that happened ... like the 4th grade.

boundaries help with empathy related issues. i used to not even be able to go into nursing homes because i was too affected by things. now i can prolly do a tap dance through the halls.

everything in life starts with boundaries.

xoxo

[Jen Squard]

I'm good with some things, and I'm getting better with age for sure. I like being super empathetic, and I really do see it as a strength, generally. I can relate to people on a super deep level without having experienced whatever they are going through. But when empathy is combined with an already volatile day it takes its toll. I'm feeling better this morning!