#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Smile- Vitamin C

Holy shit, my moods have been off the charts the last few days. Apparently this is all part of recovering from a concussion, but I have just NOT been myself. 

I have gone from feeling EXTREMELY fearful even being outside, to fits of straight rage, to low energy, to absolute depression. I am disassociating myself from it to a certain degree and just saying this is all part of healing, this is not you ... this is all part of healing, this is not you - but it's been incredibly hard. 

I can't tell you how horrible it is to comb your hair, or shower - and feel staples. I swear I wouldn't wish this on my worst enemy. 

Of course too, it could be worse - I could have ABSOLUTELY been killed, or stabbed, or even paralyzed - but I can't negate my emotions entirely, this is what I'm feeling ... and it fucking SUCKS! 

I am hella grateful we still did the liveshow on Friday, but it's not enough. I just can't stop crying, I didn't fucking ask for this shit!! I'm a PEOPLE MAGNET!!!! People are attracted to me. Period end of sentence. 99.999999% of the time it's totes kosher for passover and a blessing, that one very very very small fraction of a percentage though that it's not - shit like this happens. 

I'm being extra careful and loving with myself, but I'm just angry. I've been calling Hollywood vice to figure out at least the guy's name, so I can see what legally I can do - but of course because this is LA and shit like this happens all the time, I'm just a number. 

I am going to bring flowers to the hairdressers that saved me tomorrow. The fact that people actually helped me, AND went after him is statistically an anomaly. There have been a lot of cases done on people who have been victims of crime and statistics have proven that people won't get involved or help someone in cases like mine. The fact that SOOOO many people not only helped me, but actually CHASED after the guy is STRAIGHT good karma. 

I'm just angry, and sad. I'm not sure what else to be. It's annoying, I didn't ask for this - and to take my power back I am just working as hard as I can stirring all of the pots on the fire. 

The timing on all of this couldn't have been any worse as I have a lot on my plate right now, but again - so what else is new. 

This shit just fucking sucks, man. No other word for it. 

I just want to sleep, and coming from someone who actually WISHES there were more hours in the day so I could execute more ... it's all just very hard. 

This too shall pass ... this too shall pass. 

Oh, on the brighter side of things, all of your well wishes kicked my klout score up to an all time high of 70. Well done nerds - and for reals ... from the depths of my everything, thank you all so so so much for your kind words. I'm energetically not up to responding back to everyone yet, but please know my love is there and I've been reading everything. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. xo

#thatisall

PS. Tomorrow I see the Shaman, annnnnndddd I have a hot date. Bright side Friel. Keep seeing the bright side!!

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Make the girl dance - baby baby baby

OOOOOHHHHHH life. You are fab.

So, a lot is going on this month. For one, TNTML's very first live stage show in Hollywood is in 18 days. EIGHTEEN DAYS to put up a liveshow.

Fucking. Batshit.

This is such a dream come true for me that I want to be METICULOUS on the execution of it all, and making sure everything makes sense and runs smoothly. Of course, none of that ever happens in real life - so I am in fact learning to just go with the flow of it all.

I feel like I was born to be a producer. I'm such a - "just get it the fuck done" kinda person, that it's funny how much of that translates to producing. It's a SOLID hustle behind the scenes, but no one ever knows and frankly you're then so busy working on your next project that even you don't care. I'm CRAZY good at compartmentalizing things, and breaking situations down into doable actions. Who knew being so emotionally detached as a child would actually benefit me so much in my adult life?

Cray cray.

The year has started off right though - which is rad. Things are movin and groovin with the scripted show. The pitch is lock and loaded and now we go into strategy mode for presenting. Very exciting all around.

It's funny how when you just walk in your bliss the rest of the world comes to you versus you having to come to it. All I do is me; I am a trend spotter and team builder. By focusing on my strengths and building the team out to help me with my weaknesses, it's truly becoming a remarkable force to be reckoned with. Crazy humbling, obviously - but totally rad at the same time to align with so many AMAZING people.

I'm just buckled up at this point and going through the motions.

SUPER stoked to get my car back. (We're close to closing a handful of deals which will definitely enable that.) I still can't believe I paid over 30K for a car that has been sitting in a garage for over a year, but whatevs - taking public transportation for a year wasn't that bad, and was created yet another story for me to tell and yet another thesis that I think will be pretty cool.

Two thumbs up all around.

I gotta admit though, as great as things are professionally right now my personal life is going through a DRASTIC change; I am attracting different people into my life. I'm not mad at it, clearly there is a BIG shift in me energetic wise, but growth is a scary thing. Between the modern day shaman, and now my dating coach (@datingcoachb) - it's a lot. It's a lot to have ONE of those people in your life, let alone two AND be launching a company, AND have a stage show go up, AND have a scripted TV show slated to sell, AND be writing your first book. I am just reminded that the plate can never be too full because there is in fact no plate. Stay calm, stay zen ... and like Marley says, everything's gonna be alright.

One bite of the elephant at a time.

Oh, on Wednesday I head over to Vegas for CES. I've been pumping myself up by watching Swingers on Netflix ...

So! So! SOOOO GOOD!!!

Okay ... I gotta get back to work. I can't tell you all exactly what I'm working on yet, but it's basically a "this is your life for your vagina." It's remarkable, and uncomfortable all rolled into one.

I heart cultural disruption. This website that these guys are going to launch is going to be HUGGGEEEE!!! Such a genius idea!!! =) =) =)

#kthxbye

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick (engagement details)

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Elton John - Something about the way you look tonight

Wow. Wow. Wow. It is starting to sink in ... but not quite. I'm ... getting ... married.

Holy freaking sweaty shit balls. LOOK AT THE ROCK ON MY HAND!!!!! (I use iGlasses on my macbook pro btw - its a photobooth add on and mirrors the image. But yes, that is my left hand.)

I don't even want to know how many carats that thing is. Insane!!!!!!!!!!!!

My parents (who understand my sick and twisted need for documenting everything) made sure to film it, so they had iMovie rolling the entire time and I had no idea.

So yes, there will be a video posted tomorrow. SO FREAKING EXCITED!!! I'm editing it now - and my face is hilarious. I knew he was going to be here, but just figured we were going to kick it not friggen end up engaged. Our story was pretty nuts though - you can read more about it here.

After I posted on him, like the week later he asked me to be in a commercial he was shooting, and I literally sobbed for DAYS after I saw him.

He apparently felt the same way and a few weeks later decided to break up with his girlfriend and arranged all of this with my parents. He wasn't sure how I felt, but after he read the site he said he knew.

HOW INSANE IS THAT!?!??!!

Life is unexpected so I guess lifecasting would have to be the same way. Thanks to my parents for understanding my sick need for documentation ... this video is AWESOME!!!

Very excited I can share this moment with you all, and wow wow wow! I'm going to get married!!!

OMG my lips are going to be bruised in the morning. I don't think I've ever kissed someone this much in all of my life. Wow. Wow. WOWWW!!!

#AMAZING

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Rihanna/ Calvin Harris - We Found Love

Nerds, meet Rocky Balboa Friel. Rocky ... meet the nerds! A hoi hoi duderinos!!! What's kickin!

I've been having a blast here the last few days in Florida. I decided after the insane year I've been having to have a SUPPPEEERRRRR mellow and chill bday; I spent all yesterday with my family, and topped the evening off drinking by the ocean kicking it with my doggie (who stays with my parents while I have all of my crazy adventures. I rescued him when he was two - he's now almost 8.) reading Steve Job's bio.

Suh-weetness!!

Could not have been better - what a great night. And thank you all so, so, so, so, SOOOO much for all the birthday wishes! Way to be the raddest community on the PLANET!!!

Doh! Not up the nose!!! For reals, man - for the first 17 years of my life I cried every. single. birthday. because of the people my dad grew up with, and now to be wished happy birthday by so many people in social media is just the greatest feeling ever. I can't remember a time I felt so loved. Thank you so so so so SO much for that. Really meant the world to me.

Oh! and I totes tried to reply to everyone who posted on my Facebook wall, but the way things get grouped now in Timeline, it very literally would not let me go down past a certain number of messages. It was really fucking lame actually, and potentially a bug - I'm going to email Facebook about it. It was SOOOOO annoying last night!! I figure if someone is kind enough to take the time and message you Happy Birthday, I could at least be kind enough to thank them back!! Sure it takes time, but I do it every year.

Massive fail Facebook. MASSIVE!!!

Bah!

So, that happened. I have to admit though, one thing that kinda sucked about yesterday was that the duderino I had been dating for the last few months quietly didn't even message me. Super duper lame sauce, and definitely a deal breaker. We'll stay friends for surrrreeeeee - but yeah, no. I am SOOOOO frustrated with dating. I swear, it's this switch - the second a dude can pick up energetically that a chick is into him (and I say strictly energetically because this guy and I only talked every couple of weeks. So I KNOOOWWWW he had no idea because I didn't say shit! Nor did I post on it!) he backs off. It's weird! But again, what in me was attracted to that. I gotta take responsibility for it.

I'm excited too, I heard from a new dating coach yesterday. Going to call him back tomorrow, but he reached out to me through the loverly @msmeghanbrown and wants to help with dating.

So fucking frustrating. It very genuinely is. I'm a TOTALLY open person, and so ready for whatever life has to throw at me - but I've been single for EVER! I'm done! I'm ready for another chapter in my life, I really am.

It's a new year soon, and the more that I just focus on myself and the work I can do to better myself the more positve people I will attract. This much I know to be true. It's just very frustrating going out on SO many dates and just staring at these dudes hearing circus music playing in my head.

::doop dee doo doop dee doo::

I view a relationship as a partnership. I don't need someone in my life, but they have to have a value add and not suck. To find a guy that doesn't suck and owns his shit in LA? HAHAHAHAHA nice try!!!!

To even find a guy that likes his life is next to impossible. I can't BEGIN to tell you how many guys say, "oh I love what I'm doing, but if I had a choice I would do XXXX. I'm just waiting for that big break."

THERE IS NO FREAKING BIG BREAK!! You make that shit happen!! BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

So frustrating, and it hurts man - I'm not gonna lie. Whatever, I'll get over it and keep on trucking, but FUCCCKKKKKKKK!!! Stupid boys breaking stupid girl's hearts without even stupid knowing it.

Lame sauce.

On another note, tomorrow I'm going to visit some more of my family and then I head back to LA on Sunday. OMMGGGGG we have SOO much awesomeness coming up for the month of January. Like did you guys know TNTML is in the middle of a redesign right now?? Yep! We're going to look SUPER fancy pants come 2012 and less like "a chick with a blog." Very excited @benparr and I have been working hard. ANNNNNNNNDDDDDDD there is also another HUGE announcement coming for Hollywood nerds in a few weeks. I won't say exactly what it is yet - but it's HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE and very literally a dream come true for me. Shit got real - and now things are going to be FFUNNNNN!!! =)

We're going places, man. I'm not quite sure where exactly that place is, but I sure hope it has BACON!!!!

omg omg omg omg omg omggggggg I need bacon in my life right now. MUST MAKE THIS HAPPEN!!! brb

#thatisall

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Natalie Imbruglia - Torn

Wow. What a week, what a time ... what - an everything.

First off, my trip to Seattle is a go! Currently dealing with the financial peeps in planning, and what it's going to look like - but it's EFFING RAD man!! I'm going to be on an amtrak all the way up the coast for 31 hours - which is GREAT because I totally need to get the proposal to my lit agent on "A Nerd's Guide to Being Unapologetically Awesome." Book proposals are superly duperly long, but fortunately everything in my life is documented online - so a lot of the research the publisher is going to require is actually already done and documented since I have a shit ton of testimonials and what not already in writing. Pretty grateful for that, every bit helps.

But yah man, I'm coming to Seattle!!! So friggen excited!! It's #2 on my must see in the US! (#1 is going anywhere in the state of Hawaii. Never been before, just needs to happen at some point.)

Will make a formal announcement once everything is booked, but it'll be next week. SO. FREAKING. EXCITED!!

On a personal note, the whole no casual sex thing has been a mighty dose of everything healthy in my life. I'm pretty much the most excited person to be alive on this planet - so I can't help but also be the horniest person on the planet as well (since excitement travels everywhere ::wink wink::). I'm naturally not predisposed to want to have intimate relationships with people, but I have been opening myself up more and more and it feels damn good. (But not opening myself up TOO much either - a nice balance.) I've been dating this one duderino for a few months now. I can't talk about it since it hiccups the natural ebb and flow of dating but it's going incredibly slow which for me is GREAT. I'm still dating on OKC to keep my sanity (bitches go crazy when they like a boy - always. always. always. keep dating to not go psychotic). But I have to admit, sex has DEFINITELY changed. It's becoming less of a "bone" and more of a connection. I know I know this is the way life SHOULD be - but have you read how I lost my viriginity? I'm very much a matter of fact person, and INCREDIBLY analytical. It makes me a shark in business, but cold in my personal life. Guys have trouble figuring out how they can be a part of my life. They want to be the protector and be the provider - and here I am saying I can throw a punch, take a punch, fire a gun, wield a knife, and oh yeah! I run my own business. There has to be a give and take in there somewhere otherwise I emasculate the men. I guess I'm just so used to taking care of myself, and going after what I want, again great in business, shitty in your personal life. Need to be the chick, Friel - you need to be the chick.

It's hilarious too, because I complain and complain how dudes don't step up to the plate and take the lead, but maybe it's me that doesn't even give them the chance. OOOOHHHH how I am starting to see the light. Oh yes, it's there.

Be the chick.

Be the chick.

Be the chick.

Professionally speaking, things are going GREAT! Getting the sales team up on their legs and ready to start going after some leads. It's crazy adding more to my plate helping manage everyone - but it's gotta get done, and no one said starting a business was easy. I'm grateful to at least now have office space however so I can take a break.

OMMMGGGGGGGG I stayed in ALL weekend and slept, and lounged around. Felt GREAT! Totally took a me-weekend. Totally needed it.

Oh! and my leg is doing better after my epic wipe out.

It went from looking like I got hit by a car to now just a gnarly case of road rash. Not too shabby!! I kinda feel like a leopard. I wouldn't be mad at a leg tattoo - could be pretty rad!

All in all, lots going on - as usual, but from the depths of my everything thank you all so so so so SOOOOOO much for the emails, tweets, comments, posts, etc. You all make. my. life.

It's crazy how all this time I thought I was alone with all these weird and random life experience, only to find out that by posting on it - others would just find me! It's GREAT! Keep it up nerds!! I love love love LOVE IT!!!

Peace love and lollipops to all!! Many blessings! And if you ever want to find me you can ...

email: jenfriel at talknerdytomelover d c

Facebook: Facebook.com/JenFriel

Twitter: Twitter.com/JenFriel

#YAYLIFE

Oh, and if you want a sneak peek on what the book is going to be about, have a listen to the lecture I gave at Cal State Fullerton. You can just put it on in the background or whatevs. It's pretty long, but peeps dug it. YAY!!