Life of a #lifecaster - how I'm feeling about things.
#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @JenSquard
Lately I’ve been feeling...uh...unimpressed? I don’t know what the best way to put it is. I feel kind of like I am floating on my own out here in the lifecasting world. I haven’t talked to @JenFriel much since I called turned the tables with the calling out shenanigans (here), so I’m feeling a little alone. Jen and I are so wildly different, which I think is why bringing me on works, but I often feel like a very ill-fitting piece to this machine.
I am a definite nerd....but a different kind of nerd. Not a tech nerd like so many seem to be, but a science nerd. Unfortunately right now I’m not a practicing scientist, I’m a photographer, so nerding out over something that isn’t a major part of my day to day life is a challenge.
While my posts get retweeted and shared on Facebook a bunch (which thanks for that, by the way!), I don’t get much for response or reach out...I know that shouldn’t be a factor, but it is, and it is hard to know if I am alone or resonating with someone. I don’t even know if any of this is making sense to anyone, either, it’s just the way I am feeling.
I’m not asking for anything, and I do appreciate the platform and the support, and I definitely am enjoying the blogging...I just feel like an outsider that is trying to squeeze into a mold that may or may not be there. It seems like TNTML is going in a different direction, and I’m just feeling a little lost.
Would love to hear from you if you have some input: @JenSquard
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Reader Comments (9)
We are definitely going through changes ... but i dont plan them, they happen. Managing it is my job, not yours.
i said from day 1 i wanted to limit our interactions. has nothing to do with you on a personal level, and everything to do with the art of it all. its life told through your eyes. not the eyes of you trying to please me.
just keep on keepin on jen! here ... listen to this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9IhNuUjK6CI
You should not be disheartened, nor compare the reactions one gets from posting. You and her live in different worlds and have different objectives in life. It seems to me that, 90% of the blog responses come from the staff. The rest stem from people that are marketing someone or something, and lastly your typical fanboyism and bandwagon jumpers. Just continue being true to your real self, and not the one you want people to see. From reading your blogs, you are far more the traditional definition of a nerd than some people here, instead of the hyped up remake everyone seems to be eating up. You are not the product of transparent marketing. That is a good thing.
You should not be disheartened, nor compare the reactions one gets from posting. You and her live in different worlds and have different objectives in life. It seems to me that, 90% of the blog responses come from the staff. The rest stem from people that are marketing someone or something, and lastly your typical fanboyism and bandwagon jumpers. Just continue being true to your real self, and not the one you want people to see. From reading your blogs, you are far more the traditional definition of a nerd than some people here, instead of the hyped up remake everyone seems to be eating up. You are not the product of transparent marketing. That is a good thing.
re: criticalobserver - its just a different side of the coin. 90% of the blog responses come from staff? huh? we're all a community ... we all talk to each other. that just sounds funny. and as far as the rest goes - BITE YOUR TONGUE! don't talk about people that way, babe! those are not very nice labels to place ... and if life is reflective, what are you looking at in the mirror?
hyped up remake? where is the original? cause id love to kick it with 'em! we're all just doing our own thing babe. jen is going through some personal growth, and i am respecting that.
I need to figure out how to make this thing quit double posting, it is bloody irritating. Yes I said 90% of the replies on your actual site are from the staff. Most cannot be bothered by actually going to your site to view the articles, until you link them through facebook. You are correct, it is a community. A facebook community. And telling me to bite my tongue for talking about people a certain way is hypocritical on your part considering the countless times you have done the same. Right before you criticize, judge or label someone or something, you always start by declaring that you are not one to judge or criticize. Yet you proceed to do so, just because they are not going by or following your own definition of living life.
Indeed this is a hyped up remake. You said so yourself that you took what works and compiled them into a product. Where do you think "what works" came from? Those are individual things started and created by separate different individuals. You stand on the shoulders of giants, take their ideas and slap them into one big clay and label it a revolution. Do you think you are the first person to compile googled facts, personal struggles, sexual adventures and celebrity sightings in one website? Do you think you created the concept of Nerd or even Talking Nerdy? Life is reflective indeed. What are you looking at in the mirror? Your true reflection? Or the reflection that is more marketable?
i respect your comment, and will have to agree to disagree.
CriticalObserver: Thank you for reaching out. I'm not gonna lie, I love reading your comments, you have a very different way of looking at things and always make me rethink what I just read, and I appreciate that! So thanks for the comments, and most definitely thanks for reading!
Team Squared.
The idea of managing someone into "art" makes no sense. If lifecasting was art, it would just be a reflection on life, it would happen on it's own and there would be no need for criticism and calling out. The beauty could be in the fact that a post could be "boring" to one person and eye-opening to another. Or the art could be in the failure. Failure is often more interesting than projecting success, which could be real or imagined. But don't people give notes with books and movies? If you're talking about crafting a narrative, that's a different thing, but it seems pretty clear that honesty is what is supposedly to be valued.
If JF is not going to have any contact with J2, that's fine. But asking for changes, giving little direction, then calling "art project" seems lame. It's JF's site and she has the right to post whatever she wants or not. But it sounds like she's trying to have her cake and eat it, too, and it also sounds like she wants another person with a very different life to follow JF's specific path.
Jbug - There are no teams, but I do appreciate your input, and agree with a lot of your points. I have a lot of thinking to do, I suppose!