#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Anberlin - Impossible

OHHHMYYYGATTOOSSS!!!

Anberlin were like amazing. Like crazy, stupid, epicly, like you should have been there, cause there were only 100 people in the room for their acoustic set, like AMAZINNGGGG!!!! BAHHHHHHH!!! Those nerds really know how to kick it. Vid will be posted tomorrow. Thx again Steven for the interview!!!

Wow, super stoked! Interview with Wired is next week. Jigga ... jigga ... jigga! OH and just did an interview today for @CadillacJax - super cool. Um yeah! So much is going on ... its kinda cool, and kinda overwhelming at the same time. DUDE! I totally am incapable of playing it cool. SOO!! I asked this dude out the other night on Twitter, and hes totally up for some nerdy loving. WELL!! I also invited him to the event tonight, and yeah - super super suppperrr cute. Like crazy, super cute and nerdy!!!! I have a total nerd crush. We have our first official date tomorrow - and its so funny, normally, I'm never "that chick" but OMGGG!! hahahahahahaha I am SOOO that chick right now! He was so nice! To the workers at the party, he didn't get all LA and say - no, bye! He was engaging without being fake, and dude we totally went to the same acting school in NY and he totally went to college with a guy from my middle school. Crazy small world.

It is funny though being a lifecaster, I am just so damn honest with my feelings that NOW if I unplug for even a minute, I am incapble of keeping a poker face. I could barely even look at this dude tonight without thinking "omg omg omg" HAHAHA!! So not cool ... and he's so reading this right now ... which makes it all less cooler! But who cares!!! This is me, if a guy out there is ever going to be all up on it, he better know he's in for some seriously nerdy shit. I don't know, I just like what I like when I like it. If its there ... great! If its not ... I'm not going to waste anyones time. Life is just too short. Its funny though, my screen is legitimately broken right now, so I cant tweet or checkin places. Lucky bastard ...

So yeah!! Our director comes back from Europe next week, so we'll keep you posted - basically we're just waiting on him to get back so we can move balls to the wall forward. So, so, stoked! Thank you all so so much for being part of my life. Appreciate you all from the tips of my toes to the little dip in my nose! We've got some crazy cool stuff coming up, so buckkllleeee uppppp!!! =) =) =)

#NerdsUnite

Oh oh oh!! and it was GREAT to bump into you tonight @jeremiah!!! Small world! dude, i didnt even checkin haha!!!

A #Nerd #Randombling: Learning About Love

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's Aaron Fitzgerald

I’ve been called a nice guy, a sweet guy and an asshole.  I’ve always been insecure around the opposite sex and I have no idea why.  I talked to a friend about it and he said it just might be the way you are.  When I was young I didn’t know shit about love.  There was this girl, Corey, who I met in acting class when we were kids and I fell madly in love with her.  We’d talk on the phone everyday for hours.  I was a bit of a naïve idiot.  When she walked into the room my face would light up, so my friends told me later in life.  But honestly, I was obsessed with her.  Too obsessed.  I would tell how much I was in love with her all the time and she didn’t understand any of it.  One time she told me to listen to the words of Sting’s “If You Love Somebody Set Them Free.”  I never got it until later in life.  Once I was able to let her go that’s when she felt comfortable enough to open up to me.   Life is strange.

The second woman I fell in love with was a Canadian girl, Sherry.  Sherry and I met in a writing chat room.  The both of us were insecure about ourselves but we developed a terrific friendship.  We’d chat all the time.  Finally, after several years of interacting online we finally met.  She was just as awesome in person as she was online.  She was able to overcome her insecure about her weight, signed up at a gym and lost all the weight.  And if that wasn’t enough she got a job as a personal trainer at the gym she worked out at.  How cool is that?  Unfortunately we lived to far away from each other for our relationship to work and now she’s married.  But, she will always be a good friend of mine.

I’m still not sure if I know everything about love, but I’ve learned a lot over the years, mainly from these two amazing women.

Apocalypse Sex : Randombling from a Saint

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's  @saintpepsi 

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

listening to - Oingo Boingo - No One Lives Forever

So for many of you out there being the nerds that you are you may not be super sexy. Hell you most likely, like me don't consider yourself really that good looking. It's not a bad thing just we never had a whole lot of faith in our looks so we developed life skills like art or writing. So when a person comes along and says they find us sexy and especially if that person is a beautiful goddess one is inclined to give all of themselves to that person. This is where I have developed my theory around Apocalypse Sex or Last Day Alive Sex. See for pretty people the notion that they may never have sex again isn't even a thought they get to have. It doesn't even enter into their heads. It's up there with Paris Hilton thinking Wal-mart sells Walls. They know that being pretty people they can always get laid. I put out there my friend and writer for TNTML James “Fucking” Coggins. I'll admit this man is a good looking man with boat loads of confidence. I doubt the thought of a sexless existence has ever crossed his mind. If it has it would only be at his choosing to avoid the natural drama surrounding sex.

So why is the thought of a sexless life so important? I put forth that when a person thinks that this will be the last time they ever get laid; they have Apocalypse Sex. They Screw like they will never screw again because in there minds they believe they will never have sex again. Simple right! This goes for anyone who has a low self esteem and maybe that's why douche guys or bitchy girls work so hard at breaking people down to believing they aren't worth anything. Could that also explain why make up sex is so passionate. Because if you don't make up you might not have sex for a while or ever. So might as well make it super sex that either saves a relationship or like a camel allows you to go however long you must on the memories of that last sexual encounter. So this is why I think nerds have recently become so much more desirable. Someone finally realized that we have sex like crazed animals in the bedroom. We're basically willing to try anything and are totally open to any fantasies, especially role playing. I mean lets face it dressing up like Captain Kirk and Major Kira, Zelda and Link, or even finally seeing what happens in that plumber fantasy when Mario gets the Princess. Hell! We will always give sex our all and make sure our partner is as satisfied as we are. Because, HEY! It might be the last time we ever have sex. So why not go out and have some Apocalypse Sex tonight with that nerdy friend that has always been there for you when your dick boyfriends and or girlfriends have kept putting you down. It may just be the best thing ever.

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#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Goo Goo Dolls-  Let love in

BAHHHH!!!!! What a day!!!!!! I am stuck somewhere between so effin excited, and the reality that the work has barely begun. Just got off the phone with the parentals, and the WEIRDEST part about all of this, is that everything is entirely independent, but under one nerdy umbrella. I have THREE BIG BIG BIG projects on the VERY front burner, and even a couple on the back - yet, any day each one of those could pop. Today, the film took more of a front seat, but who knows tomorrow AOL could call, or my client who told me back in June about this bitchin project he wanted me for ... this is how things get done. I don't sit there and focus on one of them for too long, I literally have ALL of them going at once and just focus on each moment and what my next do-able action is in all of it. It's honestly the only way you can stay sane. 

I was really stressed out for the last few weeks regarding this paperwork for the film, and was even going to just go up to San Fran just to get answers ... but POOF just like that, we got everything we needed. It just amazes me the people that are behind this community, and the people that really believe in what we are doing. The impossible is possible because of you. I kid you not!! It's not a joke!

I have no idea if ANY of this is going to be a success. Success of course being a very personal thing, but by traditional standards lets deem it successful to the point where I no longer have to barter social media to live; it becomes a profitable entity in its own regard. It being the multimedia components of the site, as again, this site will always be 100% traditional advertiser free. Yes, we do have ads on the side of the screen, but those were negotiated under different terms. I want people to be free and comfortable expressing themselves in their own element of unapologetic awesomeness.

But yeah!!! BIG BIG BIG day!!!! So much of this though has to do with attitude. I literally had no idea how we were going to accomplish any of this. I even said over and over to the producers, "I have no idea how, but I will figure it out." I won't give up. This is my life, and to say I eat.sleep.&breathe. it is an understatement. This is the only thing I am capable of conversing about, and very literally the core of everything I believe in, in this world. I would have taken a job in an office, and gotten married and popped out 2.5 kids by now if I didn't think I could make this work. I KNOOWWWWWW I am making it work, its more just a matter of not setting expectations, as that can impair your attitude, and being conscious of the fact that I am very publicly describing how I am doing all of this along the way - and hearing every two seconds, "did you do it yet?" Can def. get on my nerves.

These random thoughts are pretty much my saving grace. It makes all of this tangible for me. I am sincerely as shocked as the rest of the world that this is working. It's completely illogical, but maybe the lack of logic is the new logic. Maybe this is the way ideas, and businesses can launch in social media ... by building a community and inviting them to come along for the journey. I have no idea, and I'm not even going to be cool and try to pretend.

I will tell you this, the world thinks I'm bat shit crazy.

The majority of people have not been supportive, and at least 2 times a day I hear, "but how do you plan on actually getting it done." I'm smart you asshole. I have no fucking clue, but I just stay present and see opportunities that others may not see. I don't know how else to describe it.

Yeah, at this point ... we're good. We're like crazy stupid good. Not that I ever doubted, trust, but the last few weeks have been INCREDDDIIBBLLYY stressful, and today - I can exhale for a minute. That feels good!! =) =) =) ROCK ON NERDS!!! Follow your dreams! If people think you're crazy, keep going, you're doing something innovative!!! =) =) =)

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

It's hard being really, really, ridiculously, good looking

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: DMB - You & Me

I am somewhere in between so fucking stressed, and so fucking excited. For real ... I've had this really gnarly anxious feeling all day. Just been so absurdly busy. It's wonderful, and I'm totally not complaining, but it just never ends. And the worst part is, is that it's entirely me. I just always think if I can get x then I can get y. I don't ever believe in settling for anything but my personal best, and I really do think I will be one of those people that will sleep when they die. For reals, I'm just so effin excited.

AHHHH!!! I need an assistant like you wouldn't believe. I have soooo many people to friggen get back to today. I really just want a clone. Like for reals, still have to edit this video from being in studio yesterday, have the finish planning the #nerdherd, figure out my plan of action for Tuesday in San Fran, STILL have not uploaded that little blip for the UK show, I'm just .... blah. This is definitely the best of times and the worst of times. I hate being this big and still having no money. I need to pay people, so I don't feel guilty about asking them to do things. We have a staff of 34. THIRTY-FOURRRRRR. I just need to start adding structure to this beast. It's insane. It all happened so quickly.

So stressed. I am so stressed. The bitchin part about this though, is that I just use it to motivate me. I don't like feeling this way. Any time I feel even the SLIIGGHHTTEESTTTT bit of uncomfortable-ness, I change it. VERY quickly too. I just ... need to figure this shit out, or at least give myself a bit more of a break. It's just again really really really hard documenting all of this in real time. Success stories are actually successful before they start telling people how they did it. I've just doing it all in real time - which I personally thinks heightens things, but bllahhhhhhhhhhhh.

This isn't easy, but I love it. This site gave me an excuse to live, and just this excitement like I have never known. I know it's what I'm supposed to be doing, because to me it's like breathing. I just don't know differently. It feels too good to stop. I just have to keep on truckin! Time to get it done, baby! #NerdsUnite