#Randombling: @JenSquard

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @JenSquard

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Greatest Love of All - Whitney Houston

Man, as I was typing that line, the #TalkNerdyToMeLover's part, it really hit me that I am a part of this community.  It feels so great, too!  I have always had a lot of friends and been an active participant in school and stuff, but I would never really consider myself part of many communities.  I've always tended to distance myself a bit, mostly because my dad told me that everything I did and said was stupid.  So even when I had great friends and people thought I was really funny, I was still terrified of saying something stupid.  I was constantly humiliated at home, and I just didn't want that to happen in front of my peers.  I remember hanging out with the popular senior guys when I was a freshman and just not saying anything, even though I knew every song reference they were making, and got every joke.  They must have thought I was retarded, or just hot enough to get away with it.

It feels nice to finally own my awesomeness.  I am awesome in so many ways.  I don't need validation from anyone anymore, and I am finally allowing myself to be part of communities.  I share my thoughts and ideas with fellow photographers, and other moms even ask me for advice.  ME.  I never thought the day would come that people would ask for my advice because they think I'm awesome, and not because I'm their manager or something. 

I try hard at everything I do - I don't think you should do anything if you aren't going to do it right, so I put everything I can give into everything I do.  So it feels so great to finally be recognized as having something to offer.  I'm so proud to be a lifecaster on this site, and thank you all for you input and support.  I really do appreciate it more than I can express, and I feel that it's making me a better person in all aspects of my life.  I'm sure my children thank you as well.  

Okay, off to homeschool some crazy pre-schoolers.  And buh-bye.

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