#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Des'ree- You Gotta Be

Got to be bold, Got to be bad
Got to be wise, no never sad
Got to be hard, not too too hard
All I know is love will save the day

Second best thing about comic con - getting to spend the week sleeping in all the new free t-shirts you got! Oh boy oh boy oh boy ... a lot is going on right now nerderinos - and dude, when do I ever NOT have a lot going on, ugh. No joke, this is very literally the busiest I have ever been in my entire life. Like for really reals. I spent the last year figuring out my physical boundaries (being able to walk 11 miles in a 24 hour period with my 40 lb pack on my back - being able to drive for 18 hours at a time, and operating my best from starting at 8am and going until 2am). I'm weird, but I can very literally push myself to extremes because I've tested out what it felt like on the other side of "that line."

My emotional boundaries however, I haven't really tested out. My plate right now is so fucking full - it's redic. I'm still in a holding period to find out about season 2 and 3 for the TV show I filmed back east (which I still can't talk about, but we have a big dinner on Friday, so I'm sure there will be some press announcement, somewhere). My new management is sending me out LITERALLY all over town this week to networks for generals (which are just sit downs where you go, hi my name is Jen ... thhiiiiiiiisssss is my story). On top of that, I'm writing the book on Personal Branding in the For Dummies series. So far, I have the table of contents written - hahaha no joke. I'm so behind, it's not even funny. ANNNNNDDDDD we're also selling the TNTML pilot (fingers crossed) this cycle (which ends at labor day). It's basically going to (hopefully) be sold as a pitch, and then a couple more months go by while I bond with the writer, and bam - we have an official pilot. It's kinda bat shit how much of a crap shoot the entire TV industry is. I really don't know what is going on, but I trust the suits ... really good people man. I'm just going with the flow of it, and showing up when I'm told to. ALLLSSOOOOOOOO, this site in general is in the process of getting funding. Shits about to get real, and I'm talking with a VC duderino that has an interested prospect, but I have to formalize the business plan with this advisor they want on board as well. Again, GREATEST. THING. EVER. The universe is saying to me right now, Hey Jen, you know that dream that you had ... and the now, almost 2 years you've spent living like a vagabond to launch it - well we're about to set you up so you can play. Seriously, pinch me.

All of these sound like the greatest things ever, and I assure you they are - but for me ... Jen, the nerd stirring all of these pots - it's fucking bat shit man. I am very literally running myself ragged. The VC told me at our lunch last week that I can't keep helping out so many people with one offs, and I get it - I do, but I am now realizing that there is a max to 86,400 seconds in the day. I can very literally, and very much in a physical sense only do so much. A really hard pill to swallow when what you do is your passion, and I get emails all day every day with people asking for help in various capacities - I VERY GENUINELY want to help the world with social media, or at least point them in the right direction ... but I can't. People then get mad at you, it's weird. I don't even have an assistant yet to like help me, I am very literally doing all of everything myself. (BTW, I will also be looking for an assistant in the very near future. Paying, obviously - need someone who can also act as an office manager. I won't call you an assistant though, I want your title to be something like Ambassador of Awesome. Willing to play around with it, but I don't ever, want the word assistant to come out of my mouth. I've been every form of every assistant, and the whole peeing on someone does nothing for me. I want you to be able to learn from this experience as well, yada yada. Either way, just email me: JenFriel at TalkNerdyToMeLover D com. I'm gonna pay you super well too, like for reals, almost 1/3 more of what I made starting as an assistant way, way, way, back then FUCKKKKK I'm getting old; I want someone good - really good, and I'm prepared for what that's going to cost.)

I'm tired. I'm in the final stage of scraping by. I am ready. I am awesome. And I can't believe I am awake at 6:30am.

Alrite, gotta jet back to invoicing. Oh, today! I am going to be filming this corporate vid - I'm super stoked, all I have to do is show up, film for 2 hours reading a prompter, and boom - life is bueno. I'm super super super stoked man, I used to do those videos in Florida. They pay really well, and they're super easy to do. Thanks for the opportunity, Jim!!! =) Loves it.

#thatisall

Thanks for changing my life TNTML!!!! Love you so long time ... like so so long time ... like you make me wanna bust out some Bieber and go all Baby, Baby, Baby, on yo' ass!!!!

::nerdy happy dance::

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Blinding - Florence and the Machine

A hoi hoi mateys ... lots o good news kickin round. First off, have a SUPER big week. Like crazy super big. On Tuesday, I meet with this big agency to discuss representation for the brand. Huge huge huge deal. It's going to help me switch more into creative mode, so I can focus more on that rather than feeding the ad sales pipeline. I just need help taking this to another level. I know what we're doing is working, clearly, I'm not in a ditch yet - but I recognize that I need more hands on the deck.

THENNNNNNN, I'm meeting also this week with an uber uber uber financial guru. I need to start setting things up for this site as a small business, so I'm going to take a crash course on it. Dudes, this guy is so so so so soooooooooo highy regarded in his field ... ahmazing and totally humbling that he wants to meet. So fucking flattered, man.

So yeah - the biz side of things could not be more on fire. There's a lot that I want to start doing to expand this brand, but I need to set things up for that. It's terribly exciting - and only 5% stressful hahaha. Life is ... right here. Saying, what's up! Things are just clicking effortlessly - it is BLOWING.MY.MIND. The laws of attraction have like a 30 second return manifestation. Freaking me out, but I'm going to stop questioning it and just go with it and say prayers of gratitude.

It's been a great couple of weeks, but incredibly stressful as well. I just finished post production on the TV show I was filming back east. It was weird being a producer on it as well. I fucking loved that part ... but it takes a different part of my brain, and when I'm actually filming I can't do both producer and talent at the same time. It's literally a switch in my noggin - I just have to manage that part better. Creatively I'm always a whackadoodle noodle, but that's not a producers job, that's the talent. The producer has to get releases signed, scout locations ... etc. etc. etc. I love it, don't get me wrong - but I learned a LOT of what not to do for season one hahahaha. Fuccckkkkkkk me, man. Anywho, we find out in a couple weeks about season 2 and 3. If we get a thumbs up on it, they wanna do them back to back which will be fun, and easier for me since I have travel required. It'll put me back east for like a month tho, but we shall see. One bite of the elephant at a time.

On the TNTML pilot note, we're still movin and groovin. The suits want to sell it this cycle of buying, so that's exciting. They scrapped the first script and are making it more autobiographical. I'm bummed we didn't get the showrunner that I wanted, but whatevs! These people know what they are doing, and I'm just along for the ride. Dude, my writing idol knows my name - I can die now. It's exciting, but also weird at the same time. Dudes, TV shows are such a crap shoot. It's timing, it's the right team - it's nuts. It's a weird, weird, weird, industry. I'm not mad at it, but I do find it fascinating.

Also, I start writing my first book this week. That is pretty much the trippiest thing that has ever happened to me. Even when I filled out my google plus profile I put Lifecaster/ Author. I'm gonna be a fucking author, man. Didn't even see that one coming - but it's still next doable actions, and going to be a very big project. I'm just stoked and clearly honored to be doing it. It's going to make it easier for me to explain to you all too how to be a personal brand and do more of what has worked. It's also going to give the brand TREMENDOUS credibility to be like oh, yep, I wrote the book on that ... literally. Credibility is the foundation for brands, so this is ... HUGE!

I could not be more honored and humbled. Thank you For Dummies - this is all so unbelievable.

That's whats up. I'm stressed ... I'm excited ... I'm humbled ... I'm ready ... and today I'm going to nap. Gotta rest up baby, this is going to be a FUN week!!! Yayyyyy LIFFEEEE!!! 

#bringit

Oh and PS. I MET ANN SPADE YESTERDAY!!!!!! GIRL CRUSH! GIRL CRUSH! GIRL CRUSH!!

If you guys ever have questions or anything please please please do not hesitate to email me. I read everything, and will 100% respond. If for whatever reason you haven't heard back from me, I might have read it too fast or not starred it in my inbox - just resend it, and yell at me so I can apologize haha. And if you do resend it and I still don't reply, I'm sure it was for something weird. Quit being weird.

JenFriel at TalkNerdyToMeLover dot com

All my love and all my heart TNTML. Thank you for changing my life. xoxoxoxxoxoxxoxoxoxo

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Cannibal - Ke$ha

Ohhhhh bless. Life you are so wonderfully wonderfully wonderfully random. I'm very honestly a bit overwhelmed with all of the awesomeness I've been blessed with recently - its kinda freaking me out, I'm not gonna lie. Dude, when I start thinking shit is getting surreal ... shit is getting surreal. I find out more next week about doing the social media for the rockstar. That would just be ... HUGGEEE!!! I'm so honored at the opportunity, but not trying to focus too much energy on it. No matter what ... things are moving, and that inertia is BITCHIN!!!!

Getting to do what you love every day I feel like is blessing enough; you have to understand that it BLOOWWSSSS MYYY MINNNNDDDD that it is just the beginning. I cannot stress this enough ... if you don't like what you're doing for work, you are doing life wrong. Like seriously ... STOP IT!!! I can't even believe how good this all feels (I assure you, I am trying to figure out how to break it down so I can sell the shit out of this!!!!), and others are drawn to that energy and through interdependence ... everything just gets heightened - I'm working on the exact words for articulation ... but it's just ... amazing. No other word for it. Like energy aligns, and BAMMMMMMMMM awesomeness ensues. Everyone around you lives at their potential because you are as well ... and you just get to have FUNNNNNNNN!!! Fucking, bat shit man. And totally not how I thought reality could ever be.

Now onto the WTF side of things ... I got recognized today for the first time at Trader Joes. It was weird - I've had people say things to me at Dillons, or at places I've checked in ... I love love love meeting you guys. Like seriously, you all have blessed me with the most AMAZING life ever (I sincerely need to invest in a thesaurus, or just make it my new homepage), but it was weird because this wasn't something I shared with the world that you all responded to ... I was just a human being, at Trader Joes, getting spaghetti. No one knew ... I was still in half PJ-ness. It just sort of surprised me. But hey, it's a small world ... and I DEFINITELY put myself out there. I recognize that I'm not special, just awesome ... but it was weird to think I was in control of something by going "off the grid" only to recognize that is just not a possibility. 

Whatevs, it happens ... you build a platform ... but now it's your responsibility to do cool shit with it and not be a douchey mcdoucherston. 

The air is different now. I can't describe it, but I've felt it VERY strong this week - especially with my ADD being so off the wall ... I can feel it, there's a lot of change coming my way ... and all I have to say is, BRING IT!!! =) =) =)

xoxo #nerdsunite

And if anyone is ever interested in writing for us ... or if you have an idea for a social experiment - totally hit me up!!! I wanna hear from you!!!!! 

JenFriel at TalkNerdyToMeLover dot com 

or 

@JenFriel on Twitter

Peace love and lollipops, TNTML!!! 

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Edge of Glory - Lady Gaga

Hello sexy lover faces. In Connecticut I be. See ... this is me ...

Kind of an emotional day - hence the extra photo filter.

I'm totes behind schedule on production. I've been hired as producer and talent on this super cool TV show, but the problem is that TV isn't at all glamorous ... no, like seriously. I've worked as a producer on a bunch of things, and as host/talent for a bunch more ... but this is my first time doing something so big as both. Kinda rad, but kinda AHHHHHHH at the same time. Production is a LOT of work. Like a lot a lot. And especially for TV, you have to location scout, have releases signed for said location, and every single face you capture filming - it's kind of a cluster fuck. Compound that element with travel (my hotel wound up falling through last minute, fortunately I get by with a little help from my friends ...), and car rental (the credit card didn't go through, so I had to use my own debit card - whiiichhhh as we all know has very little). So all this fuckery is going on behind the scenes, but you have to IMMEDIATELY flip the switch and go ... HI GUYS!! I'm JEN!!! Bright eye and bushy tailed without looking too psychotic.

It's a lot. Add to that the fact that I haven't been back here in so long, and it was just an incredibly emotional day.

I saw my uncle today for the first time in almost 10 years - his jaw hit the floor. He couldn't believe how different I looked. It was great to see him but kinda weird at the same time. There's always this pink elephant in the room of, hey, we've been estranged for more than half my life - but what's up! I try to practice forgiveness and just let it be ... but it's weird. He mentioned my grandmother and that she was still out of it - and I was like dude, even when she was "with it" the woman and I never got along. (click here to read more on that) It saddens me a great bit that I have very few family members that I actually consider "family" but a lot of people I am biologically related to. It's just a weird thing to accept, and the older I get - the more I still don't get it.

I also went by my old house today ... it's funny, you can't see it really from the street, but oddly enough you can see it from the plane when you're landing at Bradley. 

Freaky looking house, but very literally still to this day one of the most breathtaking homes I have ever been in.

Oh, and here's my old bus stop ...

Ah yes, that is where I used to stand with wet hair and in the winter watch the icicles form.

Dude, I so do not miss the weather!! HAHAHA!! YAYYYYY CALIFORNIAAAA!!!!!!

Oh, and totes stoked - I'm going to be doing some stuff with the Suicide Girls, (just writing - not posing haha, I don't have enough tats), and I got invited to this wing girl event with Neil Strauss the duderino that wrote The Game. I may have fallen for his game, but at least now I can learn from the master how exactly he does what he does to never ever fall for something like that again. mwahahaahaha!!! Succkkkaaaaaaaaa!!!

Super stoked man. Totally blessed to be here. Only mildly overwhelmed ... but tomorrow is a new day. I have to film 3 episodes tomorrow, after the clusterfuck that was getting everything set for today. But hey, you live you learn.

We're going to be going out in Hartford tomorrow with a big group of my friends. If anyone is in the area and wants to kick it totes hit me up on Twitter: @JenFriel

Super super super grateful and blessed for the opportunity ... but man oh man oh man ... only if people knew what goes on behind the scenes - it's madness I tell you. MADNESS!!!!!!!!! =)

xoxo #nerdsunite

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Brand New Day - Josh Radin

AHHHHH so much going through my brain. I'm so stressed man. Like in the best possible way one can be stressed. I'm just anxious, and clearly incredibly motivated.

The tech world and Hollywood are two very different places ... we operate at like a gajillion miles per hour, and when we see something we want, we create it - instantly. Hollywood is a slower beast - I can respect that ... like dude, so through and through ... our producers on this are just off the wall bananas.

No literally - they throw bananas ... a lot of them. I'm not even sure where they all come from, but if I can dodge a ball, I can dodge a banana.

I'm actually going to be looking at a sublet today - whoop whoop!!!! I need to get off the couch, DESPERATELY. Don't get me wrong, urban camping for the last year has been literally the gnarliest ride of my life - but this stuff with the pilot is emotionally tolling ... very very very much so. I'm an extroverted introvert. When I get in situations like this, I need a lot of space; I don't have that right now.

Again, best worst problem ever - last year at this time I was googling public showers, so a couch was considered a blessing. I just can't keep stressing myself out with this sheer excitement and unbelievable rush from stuff with the pilot and not have a place to decompress. I need an off button.

It's funny too, this clothing company that I was introduced to last month totally just contacted me yesterday and want to help out. Dude, their stuff totally doesn't suck! Like literally, I even said to my friend when I first saw the logo, I was like fuck, that's brilliant. They're not marketers nor do they know anything about social media - so I said I'd love to exchange social media 101 for a place to stay. Dude! I can break this stuff down for anyone, it just takes time out of my day. If you're willing to give me a place to call my own where I can decompress .... I will GLADDDLLLYYYYY teach you social media, and help spread the good word of the nerd.

HAHA! You guys are going to freak when you see their shit, it's good stuff man. Definitely good quality. I'm pretty stoked - should find out more today, but at least doing my end of the bargain by looking at a place. 

BAHHH!! This is just all so batshit. Best worst problem in the world to have - they're turning your life and website into a TV show, but I can't keep spinning and spinning, and running this site, doing all the SEO, and not have a place to just be. It's going to make me stop loving life ... and dude, that can't happen - EVER.

I honestly am so ready for a challenge ... what I did with this site, as humbly as possible, wasn't even challenging for me. This was all just so matter of fact, that now I'm very ready for a challenge ... however, understand said challenge cannot take place without a solid foundation aka my own home page.

Oh and PS. when I was sleeping in a bed last week in Vegas for the ENTIRE week ... I got to do some epic body contorting. Something that one cannot do while sleeping on a couch ... BAHHHHH!!!

This. Felt. AMAZING!

I'm hanging out at Cafe Solar in Hollywood to try and write out this story. I don't know what's going to come out of my mouth, but I find the people watching here to be very inspiring ... so I'm hopeful. If you're in the neck of the woods, and don't see me writing like a mad woman - totally come by and say hi. I only bite upon request. RAWRRR!!! Oh, but do me a small favor, please tweet me prior: @JenFriel. Not gonna lie I get a bit spooked when people just sit down at the table. hahaha love you all, but I don't immediately pull avatars up in my brain IRL. Gotta look at the handle. JIIIGGAAAAAAA!!!!

Oh and dude, there's totally a cute boy sitting over by the window. I'm making nerdy eyes. He has a mac, so I know his hard drive is compatible with my software. RAAWWRRRRR!!! Note to self, make a move before 1:37pm, and attempt to scour OKC to see if he is on there, and we are a match. He looks so super nerdy, he's gotta be on OKC. Ugh, he just looked over again ... avert the eyes Jen. Don't look directly at him!!!

love you all.

like for real.

like more than you'll ever know.

like so so long time it should be illegal.

wait, maybe this is illegal.

is one person really supposed to feel this way?

how can i bottle this and sell it?

hmm, what would my marketing strategy be?

whoops! something shiny ...

gotta go.

#bye