#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: ‪Natalie Imbruglia - Torn‬

Herrrooooo from Florida. Dude, I slept until 3pm this afternoon. No joke! Totally needed it ... I hadn't gotten more than 3 hours of sleep a night all week. It's just kinda weird though when you are consistently doing things you enjoy, being tired doesn't really feel all that bad. 

MEEHHH!!! just spent the night watching wrestling. Yep ... wrestling. Don't worry there will be a post tomorrow, HA! It was great.

I just cant begin to express the gratitude that I am feeling. I kinda can't believe that this is my life. I just get to consistently do cool shit. Don't get me wrong, its not easy ... it takes an incredible amount of determination and overall hard work, but fuck man! This is my life!! How did that happen?? I don't even know where to begin regarding 2011. This whole concept of having the brand that you gave birth to, and nursed for a year come to TV is just a fucking trip. Again, I know that we have still have a LOT of work to do, and I know that we have to present to the networks ... but between @bryceless, the Hollywood god, @benparr, I mean ... this team is just CRAZY AWESSOMMEEE!!!! I can't even begin to tell you how much I admire these people ... it's un-be-weave-able!

This was truly a project born out of love - there's just no butts about it. I have no idea how these things are exactly going to play out - but that's not my job. My job is to keep watching the trends, stay plugged into the tech portion, and smile upon request.

It just boggles my mind that lifecasting is a completely sustainable existence. For reals!! Bloggers eventually burn themselves out ... as do journalists ... but a lifecasters job is to just be open to any and or all experience. Albeit, it does take a certain type of personality ... etc ... but its amazing!! Greatest Time To Be Alive!! EVER.EVER.EVER.

Thank you guys so much for being in my life! Always feel free to tweet me: @JenFriel or drop me a love note on Facebook. I love love love love love hearing from you guys!!!

#nerdsunite

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Anyway, people....my five minutes is up. The point I want to make is walk what you talk or whatever the hell the saying is. 

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#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Goo Goo Dolls - Broadway

*waves* Hello again from the Corner Bakery!! Dude, so the virgin boy from OKC is totally meeting me here today at 8. I'm kinda cracking up, not gonna lie. I'm really really curious to see what this guy is about and why on earth he would deny himself sexual pleasure. He's 26! Come on!! Sex is good ... and sex is great. Period end of sentence.

BAHHH!! I'm working on my story of when I spent 48 hours in a nuthouse back in 2007. That was a trip. It's kinda heavy recalling some of this stuff, but cathartic at the same time. We'll see.

Super stoked, talked to the Hollywood god the other day. He's doing some moving and shaking, but he's getting a pretty rad team together for our pilot. 2011 is shaping up to be hands down the best year of my life. Like no doubt ... nothing will be able to compare type shit. It's just partially frustrating at the same time because I am stoking so many fires. I'm still waiting to hear about the Focus Rally ... and if I get that - I'm gone for 6 weeks traveling the country, competing in missions ... I mean nuts. It'll be on the main page of Hulu. I get 10K for participating with the chance to win $100,000 and 10 cars to give away on this site. Crazy stupid awesome shit ... but I just wanna know if I have it already. I know its neither here nor there, but man, I'm trying to figure out my next living situation for January. I have a really really really good shot at this, so I'm just going with it for now - and staying as present as possible knowing that I'll figure it out. I always do. Stupid brain though is trying to tell me that I should be afraid. STOP IT BRAAIINNN!!!!

Couple big meetings next week too, on even MORE stuff going on ... it just blows my mind. Its such a hustle, I get a sick perverse pleasure on being so absurdly busy. My brain refuses to stop, so I don't let it. HA!

Going back east for 2 weeks starting on Wednesday. Pretty excited, but kinda upset about it at the same time. I have to see the family member that recently got diagnosed with a gnarly illness. They asked me not to talk about it on the site, but I just don't know how I am going to look at them and not just start crying. I'm an emotional basketcase when it comes to this. This person still has stuff that we have to do together. Like important stuff. They're not allowed to go anywhere yet. Mortality is a bitter pill to swallow.

Either way, counting all my blessings and staying grateful in all things consumed in this present moment. And yeah ... that is all. Keep you all posted on this "date" ... should be very, very, very interesting.

#xoxo

#Randombling: That Nerdy Chick

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: DMB - Crash into me (Live 1999)

WOW. WOW. WOW. Eventually I will shut up about this, but lemme just let all of this sink in ... thank you TNTML. This has literally been the most amazingest, amazing, amazing birthday ever - and the party hasn't even started! SHESH!!!

Dude, so I totally just got off the phone with one of my old cellular accounts, and I'm super stoked that he and I are going to be working together in 2011. See, back pre TNTML, I used to sell activations for an indirect master agent. It was a baller job! I got to talk tech, teach non-nerdy peeps how to not only use cellular devices but how to upsell their features, garner new business from other master agents ... dude, I kicked so much ass at that job it's not even funny. I totally pulled a George Costanza too and left being the top rep. So baller ... haha alrite ego, calm down ... but for reals - I know my shit, and I know how to make these things relateable to people. I get geek speak, but more importantly I can explain it in layman's terms.

I just can't even begin to tell you how creepy it is though watching all of these bread crumbs lead to this amazing.amazing.amazing. trail. Taking a job in cellular when I was hustling trying to act in LA made no sense, but I knew it at least sounded fun and sure as shit beat waitressing. It was just incredibly hard for any of my accounts to actually listen to me at first. I had no problem signing new accounts, and showing up and even doing side by side selling for activations ... just constantly doing whatever it took to get the job done, but respect I had to earn.

Either way, this account and I reconnected on twitter, and I was so stoked. All BS aside, I just really dug this dude. He knew his shit and called me out a couple times asking what I was doing in this job and not going for something bigger in the tech world. Funny, I thought I would have to sacrifice my general girly-ness for being in tech since circa 2006, tech chicks were not universally hot. Nerdy was far from being sexy, and working in tech would have meant sacrificing another big part of myself.

So yeah, when I say this is the GREATEST TIME TO BE ALIIVVVEEEE know that I mean it from the depths of my everything. Life is CRAZY abundant when you decide to show up for it, and 1 and 1 might not equal 2 right way, but trust that if you focus on what you're doing, and the bigger picture as a whole - you will get the job done.

All my love and all my heart. Thanks for being in my life. xoxo #NerdsUnite

and PS. If you're in LA come to my birthday party tonight!!

Dillons. Hollywood and Vine. 7pm!!

and if we're meeting for the first time from Twitter, not to be douchey but can you tell me your twitter handle?? I love love loovveee meeting you guys, but its super awkward when you say, "hey it's me Jon!" I have a horrible time recalling you unless I hear a twitter handle. Not trying to sound too cool for school, but I don't process faces as fast as I do twitter handles. SEEEE YOU TONIGHT!!

#Randombling: @JenSquard

#TalkNerdyToMeLover's @JenSquard

Randombling: A 5 minute long unedited random stream of consciousness produced by a nerd for nerds.

#nowplaying: Greatest Love of All - Whitney Houston

Man, as I was typing that line, the #TalkNerdyToMeLover's part, it really hit me that I am a part of this community.  It feels so great, too!  I have always had a lot of friends and been an active participant in school and stuff, but I would never really consider myself part of many communities.  I've always tended to distance myself a bit, mostly because my dad told me that everything I did and said was stupid.  So even when I had great friends and people thought I was really funny, I was still terrified of saying something stupid.  I was constantly humiliated at home, and I just didn't want that to happen in front of my peers.  I remember hanging out with the popular senior guys when I was a freshman and just not saying anything, even though I knew every song reference they were making, and got every joke.  They must have thought I was retarded, or just hot enough to get away with it.

It feels nice to finally own my awesomeness.  I am awesome in so many ways.  I don't need validation from anyone anymore, and I am finally allowing myself to be part of communities.  I share my thoughts and ideas with fellow photographers, and other moms even ask me for advice.  ME.  I never thought the day would come that people would ask for my advice because they think I'm awesome, and not because I'm their manager or something. 

I try hard at everything I do - I don't think you should do anything if you aren't going to do it right, so I put everything I can give into everything I do.  So it feels so great to finally be recognized as having something to offer.  I'm so proud to be a lifecaster on this site, and thank you all for you input and support.  I really do appreciate it more than I can express, and I feel that it's making me a better person in all aspects of my life.  I'm sure my children thank you as well.  

Okay, off to homeschool some crazy pre-schoolers.  And buh-bye.

I love to chat!  So hit me up on Twitter or Facebook - it'll make my day!